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The Girl is Staring at Her Steps and Moving Forward Simultaneously..

Blog EntryJun 7, '08 1:59 PM
for everyone

Hmm..

firstly first, i wanna ask something..!!

have u ever hurt someone deeply? as if its too late to apologize?

Well... that question straightly should be given to me.. cause I just did .. and you know.. its full of regretion..
My head couldn't stop thinking bout facing the truth,
My heart couldn't stop blaming me, and
My mouth couldn't stop sighing,,
and unfortunately there is no turning back huunn.. just take the risk and well.. overall I'm not denying that this is my bad..

Actually i didn't mean to do that.. for sure! I didn't even think that i was gonna write down all the things i've been trough on this blog.. but however, i did. and  it has hurt someone..hikzzz..

HUAAAAA.. HUAAAA.. HUAAAA HUAAAA.. HUAAAA.. HIKZ HIKZ... T_T

I know crying doesn't solve the problems,, but I cant explain how it feels... i guess that you wont be able to undserstand unless u felt it.

Now .. i just can't seem to find a way to leave the guilty feeling behind.. even though "that person" said that he apologized me but i dont know this guilty feeling wont go away.. and eliminate it, is not as easy as it should be. its much much harder!!

"HEY.." I am really Sorry.. "

If you really know me, you should have done the right thing..

I hope "that person" could forget about it and truly apologize me from deep down of his heart.. (but wait a minute, does that person have a heart?) i doubt it,,, haha. kidding. xp

I bet 'that person will" 




Habis makan siang gw pergi ke kampuus. Rencana si mau liatin nilainya kenda. Kemaren malem Kenda minta tolong gituu ke gw soalnya dia ga SP dan masii di jakarta. Nyampe di kampus ditemenin ama Ella juga gw liat nilai pertama di MKU duluw. Eh ternyata nilai katoliknya Kenda udah keluar loh!! Ieng de gw mau liat nilai gw. Dan sodara2 pas gw liat.. UTS 83, UAS 86.. wuiih mantep kan? tapii ternyata tugas gw 0.. (nol Bulat)!!

HUAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

NILAII TUGAS GW MANAAA??

Seinget gw yaah.. gw ga pernah telat ngumpul tugas.. apalagi ga ngumpul sama sekali.. Aneh banget khan?! gara2 itu nilai rata2nya jadi "D".. aduuh!! jangan sampe de gw ada nilai "D".  PAdahal itu khan bisa A..

HUhuhuhuhuhu.. sedih dan gw hampir nangis. Masa si Ella bilang "Udahlah nan sekali-kali lo dapet D kenapa?"

HUAAAA.. si Ella nanya lagi kenapa! Masalahnya gw ga rela. Mungkin kalo emang gw dapet D karena kesalahan gw si gw mungkin bakal lebih rela. TApi ini khan beda. Gw disini cuma jadi korbann dari keteledoran dosen!

Akhirnya gw dianterin ke kantor MKU sama Ella dan Gilang. Tapi dosen katolik Gw, si Pak Cosmas Lily katanya hari ini ga ke kampus. Gw disuru dateng lagi besok dan langsung ngomong ke Pak John karena hari ini beliau udah pulang,,, huuh.. ga sabar nii gw..

POKOKNYA NILAI TUGAS GW HARUS ADA!!!!

hehehe.. yaaa.. gw sii berharap dan yakiin kalo itu cuma kesalahan dari dosen atau Pegawai MKU yang masukin nilaii.. amiin.. dan besok gw harus ke kampus pagi2 buat nyari pak John!! smangat Nanda!

Walopun besok harus bangun pagi-pagi dan harus pergi kampus gpp deh.. Apapun akan gw lakuin. Mendaki Gunung, Lewati Lembah (lebay!!).. Yang peting gw ga harus ngulang Katolik. Pliiss de.. ga mau gw ngulang MKU! pokoknya jangan sampe yaah.. amiiin..